Rant

Ok... So I need to seriously rant. If I hear one more person talk about their high paying firm job, and how much they are enjoying their summer, I am going to hit someone. Not a gentle slap, but a punch right in the jaw.

I am working 2 jobs and doing journal work. Meanwhile, I am trying to get my fiance to help me with wedding stuff, when all he wants to do is sleep on the couch, watch TV or go out and drink. I am up to my ears in work. I am trying to remain cordial to everyone around me, but there is only so much I can stomach.

I spend a good amount of my day listening to others complain about things. Whether it is my co-workers or friends, there is only so much of everyone else's problems that I really want to hear, especially since I do not burden anyone with my own (except said blog).I want to tell my co-workers to bugger off and stop complaining to me everyday about the coffee. It really is not that important, and if you don't like it then bring your own. As for friends, I wonder sometimes whether any of them are worth it. I act as a shrink to most of them, yet I hardly ever get sincerely asked how I am doing. Furthermore, while I find myself giving so much to those around me, I hardly ever get much reciprocation.

To say the very least I am fed up.

Living in a kind of daydream

I am burying myself in fiction novels. I read all night, getting little sleep. I sit with M while he is watching TV, and stare at my kindle as if it contains life's secrets.

I know my own life is passing my by as I read about other people's lives; however, I sometimes find my own life rather mundane. While I go out and drink and dance with friends on the weekends, I am low on adventures lately, and it is no one's fault but my own. I picked my profession, and continue to follow it. If I am bored, then it is because I am being boring.

I want change, excitement, movement, noise, anonymity, and vitality. Currently, I sit in an office 8-5, reading documents and inputting information. I need to vamp things up, otherwise, I will be stuck living out my dreams through characters in books.