Dinner for two?

I was a really chunky kid growing up. I weighed a lot more at 11 than I do now. I fought long and hard to get thin and to keep it, however, I still have serious food issues.

For the second time in 2 weeks I have gone on a tirade regarding food. My fiance ordered a bunch of Chinese food for dinner and ordered only items that he liked without regard to what I was going to eat for dinner. While this would be more understandable if he did not know me or my sensitivities, it is absolutly inconceivable given that he does.

Phrases like "You ordered nothing for me because you are trying to starve me on purpose;" "Have I gained that much weight that you don't want me to have dinner?; "Why are you being so mean to me?; "This is our first meal together in a week, and you don't even consider me;" and "You have sharing issues!," abounded all night.

While he picked up the phone to call in an order for me it was too little too late, both in terms of dinner and the fit I was pitching. I refused to let him order me food, and continued to pout all evening. Suffice it to say, I know I blew it out of proportion, but when it comes to food I admittedly have problems.

I am a size 2 now, however, I constantly think I am large. Thus, when someone forgets me at dinner time, I have the most irrationale emotional response. I immediately think they are trying to get me to not eat because I am big. I take it personally, and fly off the handle. Crazy, I know, but I cannot help it. I end up with an inferential chain like the following; I have gained too much weight; I am huge; he doesn't know how to tell me, so he has just decided to stop enabling my eating habits.

Healthy, no?

I guess I am the model for rational behavior.